2 am and I'm still awake writing this song

So I'm signed up for two secret santa fic exchanges, and, without giving too much away, one is a pairing I always write, and I was given pretty interesting prompts and no restrictions on rating. I can't write it. It just won't come.

The other is a pairing I've rarely even seen, let alone written or thought about writing, I was given no plot suggestions, and it's supposed to be NC-17, which is something else I've never done, nor really ever felt the need to write. And it's coming along wonderfully (the NC-17 part has yet to be written, but I think it will come, strangely enough).

What the hell is with that? How does that even make sense?

*is confused by my brain*

Also, if anyone wants to beta for me, I'd love you forever. The one that's coming along is Buffyverse, I'll give you more info if you're interested. The other is going to be Sirius/Remus, eventually.

And now I really want to go to bed, but I'm kind of scared my muse will fun away. I hope not. It's been with me since early this afternoon, when I first really started brainstorming, and she hasn't let me down yet. I'll see in the morning, I suppose.

I also really wish I had season 5 Angel DVDs. Poo. I better be getting those for Christmas, or I'm going to Best Buy on December 26.

Also: *icon!squee* jmsilvercat is my new icon hero. I have a Christmas icon, now! And it's Spirk!

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( faith )

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ETA: to cut it, and also, to add ( How to be excommunicated )